Well, I have no idea what to say. I want just to list the things that have happened in the last 6 months, not even the last 2 years. We are going through fertility testing and have had yet another miscarriage. My brother died of a rare form leukmeia. His crazy wife did everything she could to destroy our tight family relationship with him and kept us from him. There is so much more to that, that I can't even go into it here. My father was diagnosed with diabetes, then with prostate cancer. He just had surgery and now there is something wrong with his blood. My uncle died suddenly in June. One of my aunts has to have major surgery. My cousin, who is like a brother to me, has a brain tumor. He will have the first of 2 surgeries next week. Katrina has ravaged more in our nation than a coastline. My husband's step-family lived there. They are all right, but have lost everything. And now Rita is threatening another of my brothers and his family. What? WHAT... I know, I believe that he and family will be fine. I said "No more." over a year ago. But the fun just keeps on comin'. My soul cries out. Right now, I feel numb and dumb.

Wild, the winds blow
the night shows it whipping the trees
As if in protest, but truly in reveling.

Wild, untamed, the mountains shout it
with thunder and with falling snow.
Beautiful and dangerous, wonderful and whispering.

Wild and seen in the deeps, the blackest place where
pain and terrible things can bewilder
The light speaks with silence and illuminates.

Wild, it is He, working through His creation,
His people, His universe and microcosm, ignored and misunderstood
He bellows and murmurs low.

Holy and fierce in protection, gentle and peaceful
never abandoning, never counterfeit, always enfolding,
surrounding, guarding - a father.

Holy, it is He, true and without measure, wild and
zealous with love, taking the darkness of
us, and luminescing into the way.